Lots of thoughts going through my head today.... not bad stuff, just lots of it =)

Basically I've been told I have a "crisis of maturing" because I can't seem to find my place with those in my age group, and seem to want to cling to those who are younger.... so my parents have suggested that I go spend a weekend with my older cousin over in Boise, and find the Campus Crusade group at PCC. Not that these are bad things- I think they'll be really fun and I wish I'd thought of them myself.... I just don't think I'm that crazy that I need to be clasified like that:P
I just feel lonely when I think of where I'm at, because I'm not in a dorm doing the normal social stuff like the other kids in my class. And unlike every other person in my age group at PCC, I don't know anybody else who has classes with me that we can sync schedules, hang out, and study together. I like classes, but there's nothing else- It's sort of sad. I don't want to move out now or anything like that... it's just frustrating at times.
Every time I hang with people that are still in YG, I get criticism because they are younger than me. If age doesn't matter and I should make friends that are older, why can't I be friends with people that are younger???? It seems a bit hypocritical... IDK, I probably should have been a 5th year senior or something, then it'd be OK-jk. Just because I don't want to be something that has no where to go or stand (no group, no friends- sudden solitude) doesn't mean I'll never get there! I just need to wait until God tells me how I'm supposed to do this--- the kind of person He needs me to be.
And mom, I know you read this but we already talked about it- I'm just venting frustration in general, not mad at you or anything like that :-)
So yeah I'm not angry, I'm not even constantly frustrated.... I'm just venting some thoughts that can help you all who will be doing this next year think about it beforehand and get a handle on your thoughts there =)+ it helps me to say it and not have to think about it anymore:-)
And there's tons of great, awesome, amazing stuff going to too!!!!! I'm just going to leave ya'll at that =)

Verse of the day: "I will stand at my watch and station myself on the ramparts; I will look to see what He will say to me; and what answer I am to give to this complaint." Habbakkuk 2:1

Listening to: my myspace playlist-- Something Beautiful~ Newsboys

Reading: Bible, Pilgrim's Regress, and Mandy book # 40

Thinking about: How loud my sibs are at the moment- and all the sweet stuff going too =)